Will satisfaction come in a chain reaction?

So once again I’m sat frantically trying to write something. Anything. And this is what’s coming out. I’m listening to Disco Inferno on repeat, hence the title. It’s going to be another quick one because I’ve got more important things to be getting on with, like choosing the right buzz words for my CV and finding paid work. I think I need to plan more if this blog is going to be of any quality at all. You’d think because I gave myself this weekly deadline I’d be way ahead and have written several, scheduled to be published, but I aint. You’d think brushing with death like almost drowning at Porth Neigwl (Hell’s Mouth) as a teenager, would have turned me into an over achiever, it hasn’t. You’d think because I have quite expensive taste, want to buy land, build a house and get a horse, I’d choose a big money making job, I haven’t. You’d think hanging out with my older brother and his friends all these years would have made it easy for me to talk to the handsome park ranger I discovered last week, it didn’t. You’d think all those years of dancing would have given me enviable posture for life, it hasn’t. My weary hips and back need Pilates every day, just like my brain needs Pickled Onion Monster Munch to function.

Okay it doesn’t but I wish it did.

I’m learning as I go just like you, and holding on to the fact that my ambition and panic as time speeds up, will one day make me sprint ahead. I had a couple of days last week where my brain was alight, ideas firing off for a physical theatre show, short comedy sketches, how good I’ll be at Tango after my first class tonight (almost championship level), how I can work disco into a horse riding adventure and how well it would go if I bumped into the park ranger. A couple of those were daydreams I grant you, but no less important. That feeling of elation and progression was so welcome. I get so many ideas from letting my mind run wild. I’ve just had to learn how to come back to Earth when I have deadlines or when those daydreams turn into nightmares. I should also learn how to fix electronics cos my laptop says ‘No’ every Tuesday.

It was learning about totally different topics that fired up my brain. Watching The Planets sent my mind into overdrive, just like reading Sapiens, A Brief History Of Humankind and it was a welcome and necessary distraction. So I looked for free courses to study and have so far signed up for Stop Motion, Counselling, and am looking at others on Futurelearn to do with Space or Ecology. I’ve also started listening to more science focussed podcasts, as well as the comedy I usually listen to. Learning in the strict religious school environment was not for me and was very frustrating, I felt like a prisoner a lot of the time. But now as an adult I’m really enjoying it and considering re-training or just taking lots of short courses. I don’t think I’ll reach a point where I can casually talk about the making of the solar system like our Brian, but I’ll  daydream about it.

In the coming weeks I’m going to try different writing techniques to help me along. Things like late night writing, early morning writing, drunken writing, topless writing, standing writing, outdoor writing, disco funk on repeat writing, wearing fake glasses writing, stopwatch writing, and writing from the perspective of an inanimate object writing. 

I’ll let you know which ones work and if I become Tango champion.

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